Hey Mama

FIRST, CLOUDY/RAINY/STORMY WEATHER NEEDS TO DIE. Stop ruining da internetz because a good connection is very crucial these few days. As in, really crucial.... I need to download some super HQ pictures for my final project and lots of drama series too, well erm... so that I can keep myself awake throughout the night ahem. Of course adding on to that, my poor torrents also need some good connection lol.

SECOND, MY UNOFFICIAL HOLIDAY (no, it's not called a term break anymore) STARTS IN 3 DAYS. I say unofficial because I still go back to college for graduation projects after this week sobsobsob. I will officially leave..... January next year. FML. Then again, wtf I need to get a job after that. LOLWAT NO WAY. I'm way too young for those brain hammering shit.

THIRD, SPEAKING OF DRAMA KEKEKEKE. Uhm dang, everyone needs to watch this gem called You're Beautiful, okay? It consists of a heart-wrenching yet funny as hell storyline, a few very handsome nice guys, a cute girl you'll be jealous of and of course... an annoying bitch (every drama needs one). I love it because the basic plot of the drama is so cliché but yet it isn't really.

What baffles me the most is that all 4 main casts sing in it. And I first thought those band performance were just act-outs. In fact, they sing so well and I'm totally addicted to its soundtracks ;__; Yes, I enjoyed Boys Over Flowers.... like, 10 months ago but it was predictable and draggy compared to this one. However, if I'm being quite honest.... BOF has a stronger protagonist character-wise, that is Jihoo sunbae :D

ALMOST PAAAARADISE~ stays in my heart forever though. That song will never be forgotten hahaha.

FOURTH, I spent all night yesterday watching the Mnet Asian Music Awards (it's also called MAMA, for lack of better words) on Channel V. It aired for a full 4 hours damnit. It lacked many fantastic/amazing/awesome/flawless/etc artistes because Mnet is a big bucket of mess but I kind of enjoyed it because....

#1 Are you kidding me. A full 4 hours of kpop goodness on a HD tv screen.

#2 I watched it with my family hehehehehe and it was fun to see my mum going "aiyoooo so pretty" and "whoaaaa who is this who is this, so handsomeeee" when she saw 2NE1 and 2PM on screen. WHY DO YOU THINK I'M SO JEALOUS, MUM?

#3 My dad knows me best. "If one day you get to hug one of these boys, you'd rather have 5 years of your life shortened, right?" Kekeke smart old man is smart. By the way he thinks 2PM boys are talented/hot/great dancers.

#4 My sister's boyfriend is interested in G-Dragon no kidding. He was constantly saying, "wow this guy very cool and his stage is awesome man!" Lol. We even discussed about Jaebeom's scandal. My sister, on the other hand, couldn't stop asking if the Wonder Girls were there.

Overall, the awards weren't as extravagant as how I have pictured. I didn't quite understand how some artistes could have won, i.e KARA over SNSD for Best Dance. Um excuse me, Gee was the most hyped song of the year and it won nothing. Biased much, Mnet? Very happy to see 2PM boys stealing away the Best Group, though. They totally deserve it after all the things that has fallen upon them. Their very Jaebeom-centric speeches made me weep.

The only thing I was genuinely happy to see was this:



I'm probably gonna get eggs thrown at me, but what happened to you, Jaejoong? HAVE YOU NOT EATEN FOR DAYS? My face was literally like ;___; throughout that whole 3 minutes of their speech. Junsu looked like he was faking a smile, Yoochun looked like he doesn't want to be there and Jaejoong looked like he doesn't know where the fuck he is. "We're very happy"..... oic.

I wanted so much to see all 5 on stage but seeing 3 was definitely good enough. As of now, things may be a huge helter skelter, but these 'Rising Gods of the East' will always be Gods ok? I say, go ahead and leave SM Entertainment if they must, since SM is a full of fraud anyway. They can do whatever they want because they're Gods, yes.

It'd be an epic show with the presence of SMtown, though. None of SHINee, Suju, f(x), SNSD was there. Otherwise I would have had the chance to show my mum how stunning/flawless/beautiful they all are because they would've been the spotlight. Heh I'm really turning my whole house into some kind of Korean fish market.


LOL. I just wasted 20 minutes of my life on this entry. Way to go, Joyce.

Corby is a nice name.

Taking a very much needed break from rendering my final TVC. My eyeballs are on the verge of popping out from the sockets. I honestly feel like sleeping right now but I think about the possibility of not waking up until 9am tomorrow and it is.... kind of too much for me to take in. NO WAY I'M SLEEPING OVER 8 HOURS TONIGHT. HMPFFF.

My stupid emotional breakdown 4 days ago made me sound so much like a troubled child lol. Crying is such an effective way to let things off, though, I must say. I'm totally turning each night into a major sobfest if I keep being stressed and shit. And you know, that fucking Korean drama called You're Beautiful? I swear it's taking over my life ok. THE STORYLINE IS STRESSING ME OUT. Lol it's so melodramatic I'm not even joking T_T

Hwang Taekyung: Go Minam, I see you very well right now. You can't see because this side is too bright right? You... When I couldn't see you, were you crying all the time?
Go Minam: I am not going to cry anymore. Please just pretend you didn't see it.
Hwang Taekyung: How can I pretend when I can see you clearly?! Go Minam, you kept looking at me like that the whole time, right? I hadn't know because I couldn't see you.
Go Minam: Please keep pretending not to know. I won't look at you anymore.
Hwang Taekyung: You cannot not see! I can't let you have it your way. Continue looking on! Like you did up till now. Like you did up till now, only look at me! Go Minam, from now on, I give you permission to like me.


And everyone in the show uses this Samsung Corby phone. I kind of want this in my life.



But it's only available in Korea and Europe. I IS SO SAD. Plus it's only selling at 150€ :((((
Oh no, I was wrong. The phone is available here but wtf I need money ok.

Brb going to create the longest ever birthday wish/lust list.

Too long to read.

Ugh I hate myself for being such an emotional wreck sometimes. One minute I'm all happy like a dimwit and the next minute I just mush my face up in tears. It happened all of a sudden after having a nice dinner with my sister. I came home, had a short conversation with my dad, received extra allowance from him and by the time I got back into the room, I started crying wtf. I don't know if this breakdown is caused by a long term stress but this hasn't happened in like.... probably months and months ago. Then my iTunes shuffled to The Album Leaf - Twentytwofourteen and Over the Pond, so I ended up crying even more. These post-rocks songs are totally meant for making a sad person ten times sadder. I went to look into the mirror and my face was all drenched in tears omg, like I just cried a bucket. I was still in good shape during the afternoon while watching Inkigayo, because SHINee won a triple crown for the first time and shit. The heck happened? I'm hardly ever like this. I bet people think I'm nuts because I don't cry very much. I kind of look like a major joker from the outside most of the time. Anyway, just to make things many times more depressing, I found out from YiLyn this evening about our Dean of Studies, Ms Veronica Ho's passing. I was so shocked you have no idea. I may not have talked to her enough, but I know at the very least, that she's a very courageous and kind woman. I very much wanted her to be around to see us fellow 71's graduate, too. May you be in a better place now, Ms Veronica. Also, I hope my grandma is doing okay. I promised myself to visit her at least once in the hospital despite my disgustingly heavy timetable.

Anyway oh my god I'm so confused and clueless suddenly ;____; Wtf I don't wanna go to bed with swollen eyes from all this sobbing.... I'll end up suffering from a huge headache at school for sure.

Why the hale, did I just write a longass essay about my emotional breakdown or something. UGH.